the choice

So yesterday I had the privilege of attending a talk by Ramesh Muthusamy, an NLP expert from the Adam Khoo group. While the main focus of the talk was on creativity (yes, one can actually follow steps to become creative! yay me!) Ramesh also talked about how stifling the Singapore education system is and how it nurtures us to be nothing more than just clones of each other. It simply teaches you how to show that you have substance without actually inculcating that very substance in you. Besides that, he also talked about having the courage to pursue your dreams - no matter how big or small, because then, and only then, can you say that you have led a meaningful and worthwhile life.

And so it got me thinking: have I really explored other options besides medicine? 

Well the answer is a loud resounding NO. I haven't. All my life I've been told over and over and over again that I 'want' to be a doctor because (insert all the benefits of being one), and although I do know for a fact now that I want to pursue a medical career, the fact of the matter is that I haven't properly weighed medicine against anything else. 

I remember wanting to be many things when I was younger. Policeman. Astronaut. Rock star. Professional football player. (notice how the big D isn't one of them)

So really, where has that cheney gone to? Has he really disappeared or was he merely, over time, pushed into the backseat by my subservience to my parents and my reluctance to 'go my own way?'

I don't want to take the chance and jump into something that may not be my calling, but I guess I don't really have a choice, do I?

Especially since so many sacrifices have been made to get me to where I 'want' to be.

the sunset

with every sunrise comes a sunset, and i pray that i make it through the night.

everything changes

Girl, Come On Over Here 
Let Me Hold You For A Little While 
And Remember I'll Always Love You 
Forever 
Everything Changes But You 

We've Said Goodbye, The Taxi Cab Is Waiting 
Now Don't You Cry, Just One More Kiss 
Before I Have To Go 
Hey Girl I Know The Situation Changed 
And So Much Is New But Something In My Life 
Remains The Same Cos 

Everything Changes But You 
We're A Thousand Miles Apart 
But You Know I Love You 
Everything Changes But You 
You Know Everyhting Single Day 
I'll Be Thinking About You 

The Rumors True, You Know That There've Been Others 
What Can I Do, I Tell You Baby They Don't Mean A Thing 
Now Girl Don't Go And Throw Our Love Away 
I'll Be Home Soon Back In Your Arms To Hear You Say That 

Eveything Changes But You 
We're A Thousand Miles Apart 
But You Know I Love You 
Everything Changes But You 
You Know Everyhting Single Day 
I'll Be Thinking About You 

Everything Changes But You 
We're A Thousand Miles Apart 
But I Still Love You 
Everything Changes But You 
I'll Spend Everyhting Single Day 
Thinking About You 

Though Everything Changes Around Us 
(Baby Don't U Cry) 
We Will Be The Same As Before More 

Everything Changes But You 
We're A Thousand Miles Apart 
And I Still Miss You Baby 
Everything Changes But You 
You Know Everyhting Single Day 
I'll Be Thinking About You 

Everything Changes But You 
I'll Be Thinking About You, 
Thinking About You 
Everything Changes But You 
Cos You Know I Love You 
Know That I Love You 

Everything Changes But You 
I'll Be Thinkin' About You, 
Thinking About You 
Everything Changes But You 
I Love You, I Love You

of growing up and farewells

we're all growing up, and i hate this part right here.

christmas with the famous 8mos

What an awesome famous 8mos christmas gathering. It's been so long since we've had so much fun together cooking and eating (pasta and mashed potatoes and turkey and ham) and talking and playing (bridge and monopoly deal and risk), and perhaps it was even more special because it was probably our last christmas together in awhile. I thank god for this group of friends I have made, and I hope our friendship withstands the test of time.

rocketeer

I've always been the type to suffer from post-holiday blues, and this year it is no different. That familiar sinking feeling, if anything, is slightly worse this time, and as I take my first step onto home soil, I can't help but feel slightly displaced. Perhaps that's what escapism does to you - it makes you feel uncomfortable with reality. I heave a heavy sigh and try to distract myself with a book, but the words don't seem to form any coherent sentences. My thoughts are filled with resentment, resentment at having my carefreeness robbed of me. All I want is to get on the next flight out of here and never come back..

But then you come along, and as soon as I hear your voice and see your face all my inhibitions about coming home start to fade away. I hold you in my arms and I know that this is where I belong, with you by my side.

-

here we go, come with me

there's a world out there that we should see

take my hand, close your eyes

with you right here i'm a rocketeer

the try

I cannot emphasise how fast time is passing.

On one hand I am certainly enjoying this acceleration, because it means that I am now just 13 months away from liberation (03/01/2012!). On the other, however, I am afraid, because it also means that college education is drawing closer, and with it a possible end to my 19 year stay in this sunny island I call home. Though temporary, to say that 6 years abroad is a long time is but an understatement. It's an eternity.

As necessary as it may be,  I don't know if I'll be able to leave everything behind - my family, my friends, and you. (okay mostly it's just you)

.. okay I shall stop the emo-ness. It can wait till next year. Why? Because..

CHRISTMAS IS UPON US :D and though I may be gone for 9 days, I'll be back to celebrate our first christmas together :)

It's been a good weekend.

I'm in a better place, don't take this and turn it around.