one more weekend

the choice

2011-03-17T21:56:00.001+08:00

So yesterday I had the privilege of attending a talk by Ramesh Muthusamy, an NLP expert from the Adam Khoo group. While the main focus of the talk was on creativity (yes, one can actually follow steps to become creative! yay me!) Ramesh also talked about how stifling the Singapore education system is and how it nurtures us to be nothing more than just clones of each other. It simply teaches you how to show that you have substance without actually inculcating that very substance in you. Besides that, he also talked about having the courage to pursue your dreams - no matter how big or small, because then, and only then, can you say that you have led a meaningful and worthwhile life.

And so it got me thinking: have I really explored other options besides medicine?

Well the answer is a loud resounding NO. I haven't. All my life I've been told over and over and over again that I 'want' to be a doctor because (insert all the benefits of being one), and although I do know for a fact now that I want to pursue a medical career, the fact of the matter is that I haven't properly weighed medicine against anything else.

I remember wanting to be many things when I was younger. Policeman. Astronaut. Rock star. Professional football player. (notice how the big D isn't one of them)

So really, where has that cheney gone to? Has he really disappeared or was he merely, over time, pushed into the backseat by my subservience to my parents and my reluctance to 'go my own way?'

I don't want to take the chance and jump into something that may not be my calling, but I guess I don't really have a choice, do I?

Especially since so many sacrifices have been made to get me to where I 'want' to be.

the sunset

2011-01-25T22:08:00.003+08:00

with every sunrise comes a sunset, and i pray that i make it through the night.

everything changes

2011-01-20T23:50:00.002+08:00

Girl, Come On Over Here
Let Me Hold You For A Little While
And Remember I'll Always Love You
Forever
Everything Changes But You

We've Said Goodbye, The Taxi Cab Is Waiting
Now Don't You Cry, Just One More Kiss
Before I Have To Go
Hey Girl I Know The Situation Changed
And So Much Is New But Something In My Life
Remains The Same Cos

Everything Changes But You
We're A Thousand Miles Apart
But You Know I Love You
Everything Changes But You
You Know Everyhting Single Day
I'll Be Thinking About You

The Rumors True, You Know That There've Been Others
What Can I Do, I Tell You Baby They Don't Mean A Thing
Now Girl Don't Go And Throw Our Love Away
I'll Be Home Soon Back In Your Arms To Hear You Say That

Eveything Changes But You
We're A Thousand Miles Apart
But You Know I Love You
Everything Changes But You
You Know Everyhting Single Day
I'll Be Thinking About You

Everything Changes But You
We're A Thousand Miles Apart
But I Still Love You
Everything Changes But You
I'll Spend Everyhting Single Day
Thinking About You

Though Everything Changes Around Us
(Baby Don't U Cry)
We Will Be The Same As Before More

Everything Changes But You
We're A Thousand Miles Apart
And I Still Miss You Baby
Everything Changes But You
You Know Everyhting Single Day
I'll Be Thinking About You

Everything Changes But You
I'll Be Thinking About You,
Thinking About You
Everything Changes But You
Cos You Know I Love You
Know That I Love You

Everything Changes But You
I'll Be Thinkin' About You,
Thinking About You
Everything Changes But You
I Love You, I Love You

of growing up and farewells

2010-12-27T02:31:00.000+08:00

we're all growing up, and i hate this part right here.

christmas with the famous 8mos

2010-12-20T01:03:00.000+08:00

What an awesome famous 8mos christmas gathering. It's been so long since we've had so much fun together cooking and eating (pasta and mashed potatoes and turkey and ham) and talking and playing (bridge and monopoly deal and risk), and perhaps it was even more special because it was probably our last christmas together in awhile. I thank god for this group of friends I have made, and I hope our friendship withstands the test of time.

rocketeer

2010-12-14T22:57:00.000+08:00

I've always been the type to suffer from post-holiday blues, and this year it is no different. That familiar sinking feeling, if anything, is slightly worse this time, and as I take my first step onto home soil, I can't help but feel slightly displaced. Perhaps that's what escapism does to you - it makes you feel uncomfortable with reality. I heave a heavy sigh and try to distract myself with a book, but the words don't seem to form any coherent sentences. My thoughts are filled with resentment, resentment at having my carefreeness robbed of me. All I want is to get on the next flight out of here and never come back..

But then you come along, and as soon as I hear your voice and see your face all my inhibitions about coming home start to fade away. I hold you in my arms and I know that this is where I belong, with you by my side.

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here we go, come with me

there's a world out there that we should see

take my hand, close your eyes

with you right here i'm a rocketeer

the try

2010-11-28T22:06:00.000+08:00

I cannot emphasise how fast time is passing.

On one hand I am certainly enjoying this acceleration, because it means that I am now just 13 months away from liberation (03/01/2012!). On the other, however, I am afraid, because it also means that college education is drawing closer, and with it a possible end to my 19 year stay in this sunny island I call home. Though temporary, to say that 6 years abroad is a long time is but an understatement. It's an eternity.

As necessary as it may be, I don't know if I'll be able to leave everything behind - my family, my friends, and you. (okay mostly it's just you)

.. okay I shall stop the emo-ness. It can wait till next year. Why? Because..

CHRISTMAS IS UPON US :D and though I may be gone for 9 days, I'll be back to celebrate our first christmas together :)

It's been a good weekend.

I'm in a better place, don't take this and turn it around.

soliloquy

2010-11-08T23:58:00.000+08:00

To-morrow, and to-morrow, and to-morrow,
Creeps in this petty pace from day to day,
To the last syllable of recorded time;
And all our yesterdays have lighted fools
The way to dusty death. Out, out, brief candle!
Life's but a walking shadow, a poor player,
That struts and frets his hour upon the stage,
And then is heard no more. It is a tale
Told by an idiot, full of sound and fury,
Signifying nothing.
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sometimes i wonder if all of this is worth fighting for.

because as adulthood beckons and I say goodbye to being a teenager, I realise that I'm 20 years closer to the end. we all have that clock ticking above our heads, and with every passing second we are losing the fight to fulfil our bucket list.

so the question really is, are you willing to take chances and prioritise society's bucket list over yours?

I remain undecided.

what the hell is going on?

2010-10-21T23:20:00.000+08:00

it's crazy how awry things can go in the blink of an eye.

just a few months ago the idea of wayne rooney leaving man utd would be laughed off as rubbish . just a few days ago the idea was an unlikely possibility. now, it's an absolute certainty. for reasons i cannot fathom he has decided to ditch the club who stuck by him during his numerous scandals and a manager who has no doubt groomed him to be the world-class player that he is today. sure, man utd may not be a club of superstars but surely we have the history, the culture, the support, the cohesiveness and a top manager like no other. like sir alex rightly says, the club is in a transitional phase and while it is questionable to be investing in youth in today's footballing era, sir alex is seldom wrong in his judgements. so for rooney to want to leave just as the club is rebuilding and remodelling itself is treachery to the highest degree. i know i am not the only one who has been left dumbfounded by the man who once represented everything man utd, who was, essentially, man utd, but just like during the dark days of '05 we will pick ourselves back up and show that no one is bigger than the club.

on a sidenote the haze is getting worse. today's PSI hit a 106, which is way higher than the 80 recorded yesterday. everyone's in such a frenzy checking the NEA site (me included), so much so that the site has crashed. one can blame the indonesian government for not doing more to curb the fires but then again it has greater problems i.e itself to deal with; surely it's understandable if a few fires kill a few people in its neighbouring countries.

i swear sometime during the last 2 days a frog jumped into and latched onto my throat.

somewhere in canada the families of the 2 women raped and killed by that barbarian of a colonel must be in deep mourning. my heart goes out to them.

what the hell is going on?

you are my only constant, and my love for you grows stronger with each passing day.

closer to the edge

2010-10-05T21:59:00.000+08:00

And then there are times when the banality of everyday life just won't cut it anymore, and we yearn for something more, for something different.

Still, we swear by routine because it's familiar, and it's all too easy to be confined by it.

But I refuse to allow myself to.

Because as I lie on my deathbed years from now and have my entire life flash before my eyes, I want to be treated to the most spectacular of scenes.

I want to take risks. To take chances. To make leaps of faith.

To live on the edge.

the powers of acupuncture

2010-10-03T01:22:00.000+08:00

Tradtional Chinese Medicine (TCM) is trying to convince Western Medicine (WM) of the effectiveness of acupuncture.

TCM: Do you know what a porcupine is?

WM: Yeah..

TCM: Have you ever seen a porcupine?

WM: Uh-huh..

TCM: Have you ever seen a sick porcupine?

WM: No..?

TCM: My point exactly.

HAHAHA

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Had an intensive ab workout today :) thanks for accompanying me baby. get well sooon k!

1 down, 9452859 to go

2010-10-01T20:58:00.000+08:00

a small but significant step forward. i can sleep well tonight :)

can't wait for hossan leong tmrw :) can you?

These are exciting times

2010-09-30T16:30:00.001+08:00

As we inch closer to the end of the year, I can foresee myself drowning in uni apps, and though I incessantly gripe about having to spend hours and hours on writing personal statements and preparing for admission interviews, I am secretly relishing the prospect of putting my brain to good use (being confined to thinking of ways to 'chao keng' has certainly reduced it to mush).

These are exciting times indeed!

(Is it october already!?)